Messages From the Past.

I am blown away in this moment.  Completely blown away.

In The Happiness Project, Gretchen Rubin touches on the Blank Books she filled as a kid.  I, too, loved blank books.  Reading her experience sent me to dig up a blank book that was given to me by my dear friend and roommate from the Joseph Baldwin Academy.  I used the book beginning in 1991, to record quotes, poems, song lyrics, movie lines and anything that spoke to me.  Reading through it tonight, I feel like the kid I was is loving on the adult I am now.

Here is some of what I found in that book.

  • To be yourself in a world that is doing its best to make you something you are not, is to fight the hardest battle any human can fight. 
  • Why can’t we get all the people together that we really like and stay together?  Someone would leave, someone always leaves, and then we have to say goodbye.  I hate goodbyes.  I know what I need.  I need more hellos. (Snoopy)
  • A friend is one who comes in when the whole world has gone out. 
  • Life is more than a vision.  The sweetest part is acting after making a decision.  (Indigo Girls)
  • If I don’t take what I read or what I am told and weigh it against my own experiences, then of what value am I to myself?
  • Each man had only one genuine vocation – to find the way to himself.  (Herman Hesse, Demian)
  • I am not capable of standing so naked and alone. I, too, am a poor weak creature who needs warmth and food and occasionally the comfort of human companionship.  (Herman Hesse, Demian)
  • I wanted only to try and live in accord with the promptings which came from my true self.  Why was that so very difficult?  (Herman Hesse, Demian)
  • Every now and then I fall apart.  (Bonnie Tyler)
  • I will never give in until the day I die.  Get myself some independence.  Carve out a future with my two bare hands.  (The Alarm)
  • When the heart speaks, the mind finds it indecent to object.  (Milan Kundera)
  • “Stay” is a charming word in a friend’s vocabulary.  (Amos Bronson Alcott)
  • A true friend laughs at your stories even when they’re not so good and sympathizes with your troubles even when they’re not so bad.
  • Even though my neighbors are all barbarians, and you, you are a thousand miles away, there will always be two teacups at my table.
  • We lie loudest when we lie to ourself.  (Eric Hoffer)
  • This is me.  I’m not proud of it.  In fact, I’m a little embarrassed by it, but this is who I am.  (Bill Hybels)
  • I don’t mind struggling if that’s what it takes to do what I love. (Richard Bach)
  • I want to believe there is someone else in the world who is just as alone as I am.  I want to believe that we’re going to find each other and love each other and never be alone again. (Richard Bach)
  • I often find myself waiting for someone else to give me permission to pursue the things I desire. (Dobie theater preshow)
  • You need a clean slate as much as I do.  (the movie Heathers)
  • I always seek the good that is in people and leave the bad to Him who made mankind and knows how to round off the corners. (Goethe)
  • The poor man is not he who is without a cent but he who is without a dream.  (Kemp)

I realize this is a long list.  I fought hard to resist the urge to reproduce every quote, poem, song lyric and movie line here.  It amazes me how much these words and all – literally all – of the words in my once blank book still resonate with me.  I do value friendship.  I do want to be true to myself.  I don’t care to judge or be judged. I do struggle with who I am and being lonely far more than I would like. 

Reading through this book, I feel like the kid who recorded these words nearly twenty years ago is reaching out to encourage me today.  I am so thankful that she took the time to compile these messages.  Through them, she is both challenging me and giving me permission to pursue and be…me.

Do you have a similar book tucked away somewhere? What does it say?

5 thoughts on “Messages From the Past.

  1. Great post! I know I wrote stuff down, now I'll just have to figure out where it is. Thanks for reminding me of its existence. You are a Renaissance Woman, Taline!

  2. Dare I say I remember some of those quotes from our room senior year, no? I love my blank books too . .love this post. Any post that includes the Alarm and Goerthe is worth reading. I buy lots of blank books for my to-do lists at work and home -and I fill them, but in essence they are empty. Yet those blank books from twenty years ago have probably aged like good wine. You have inspired me to keep a blank book with me that is just for the ages, to ensure I have a little encouragement for the second half of our lives ahead of us, and this too is likely to keep me from living with what can be apparent fullness and yet relative emptiness.

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