I’m holding my breath a bit. There’s one thing happening at work that could cause the next week to be complete and utter hell. Or it could turn into absolutely nothing, and I could have a delightful week. I’ll know more tomorrow and obviously have a strong preference as to which way this turns out. I want to enjoy turning 40 on Sunday, celebrating Christmas, and my final preparations for Africa. Keep your fingers crossed for me, will you?
It’s different to be looking forward to the holidays. Last year, they were just hard. The year before that, a dear friend of mine died unexpectedly. The year before that, I was far too busy at work to have any kind of holiday. But this year, I’m…happy. Keep your fingers crossed that I stay that way? I have every reason to think I will but since you were crossing your fingers anyway…
Aside from possibly work, my biggest task is to do my last bit of shopping for Africa and to get myself packed. I finally made my last shopping list and it consists mostly of pharmacy-type purchases. When I made the list, I realized that I’m actually more ready than I thought. That was comforting to me.
I’m excited about Africa, but I am a little sad about disengaging from my life at home right now. I like my life at home. I love how my home feels with its new curtains and bedding. I love the company I’ve had in my space lately. I love how training is progressing and how work feels right now. I don’t desire to leave my life, but I have this enormous trip planned and I need to do it. I want to do it. I just wish I could go and stay at the same time, if that makes any sense.
And I’m nervous. I’m nervous about being on a mountain without the luxuries of restrooms and a roof over my head. Two weeks is a long time to camp. I’ve never camped more than a night. I can do it, can’t I? I hope so. I’m also nervous about getting up the mountain. The book my guide company sent me said that people react to altitude differently and that the most fit are often the ones who have the most issues. The seems counter-intuitive to me. I know I’m not the most fit person in the world, but I’m pretty fit. I want my fitness to help me, not hurt me! Maybe you could cross your fingers for that too?
Many thanks to you for the crossed fingers on all counts.
I hope you are having a wonderful time with your own preparations for the holidays. I hope you get to be with people you love. I hope the stresses of life fall away, at least for a while, and that you get to relax and enjoy this time. And I hope you find yourself happier than you’ve ever been.