I’ve been quiet. I know. I’ve been working and training and reading a book called Interrupted, When Jesus Wrecks Your Comfortable Christianity by Jen Hatmaker. The book is what’s occupying my attention right now. I’m reading it alone, but I’m wishing I had a small group of friends who were reading it with me. The book is about how Jen’s brief prayer, “God, raise up in me a holy passion” interrupted her life. I’m intrigued, in part because I’ve been at this place where everything feels really good – like I’m on the verge of getting everything I ever wanted – but I’ve had this nagging sensation that something big was about to happen. I couldn’t figure out if it was a good big or a bad big. So, tending to think the worst, I’ve been bracing myself for a fall of some kind. When I started reading this book, I realized there’s a third possible category – a hard but good big.
I’m sensing that’s where things are headed for me right now. I feel like I’m on the verge of something huge that will be the hardest thing I’ve ever done and the best thing I’ve ever done. That’s what Africa felt like to me, but this feels bigger. It feels bigger than climbing a mountain or finishing a race. I don’t know yet precisely what it is, but I know that it’ll be more huge and more difficult and more rewarding all at the same time.
This book is somewhat about that experience for Jen. It feels like the book landed in my hands at precisely the moment when I needed it. I wish it had landed in my hands at a time when I had nothing going on so I could just read, but that’s not what happened. I’m sneaking pages here and there where I can find the time. I’ve often said the best books are those that totally disrupt life – those that make you stop what you’re doing and read. Interrupted has done that for me. I haven’t been able to stop entirely because work continues and I still have plenty to do to prepare for Dave moving to town next week, but this book is forcing its way into every free moment of my day. I’m glad. I like books that take hold and won’t let go.