We’re home from Coeur d’Alene, and I’m feeling a post-race slump even though I didn’t race. We spent Saturday morning with our new friend Rose, visiting and helping her prep her gear bags. That afternoon, we drove a couple of hours to Chewelah, Washington, to visit my dear friend Rey and her husband David, who moved up to that area about five years ago. The next day, we spectated. It was fun, as spectating an Ironman is always fun, but without a doubt, racing is more fun. Even though we were drenched in sweat just standing there holding signs and ringing cowbells, I envied those who were facing the 106 degree heat and the 147 degree ambient heat on the highway. It was a tough day out there and many incredibly able athletes were not able to survive the conditions, but damn. I so respect each and every one of them for trying.
I don’t know how I would have done with the heat. It’s possible I would have made the cutoffs and crossed the finished line. It’s also very possible that I would have missed them or just not finished given that it was the hottest day in the history of Coeur d’Alene. I’m not the best at nutrition, especially on the bike, and that most certainly would have been the deciding factor in this race. But I won’t know how I would have done. I didn’t try.
Now that I’m home, I’m thinking about what’s next. I want to find a way to turn this year around. I’ve missed all of my races so far. I’m signed up for a half marathon in August, marathons in October and November, and an ultra trail run in December. Goal #1 is to get myself to the starting line for each race. Goal #2 is to finish each race. Goal #3 is to PR my marathon. All of that requires that I get healthy.
I pretty much rested the month of June, and I’m not back to normal, so I’m trying a different approach for July – training through some discomfort. July 1 is day 1 for me. I’m getting back to some kind of activity (running, swimming, biking, yoga, something) each day, even just for half an hour. I think my mind needs that, and I’m hopeful my body will find a way to get it done. I need to set up an appointment with Dr. Sellers too. He helped me in Coeur d’Alene, and I’m confident he can continue to help me now that I’m back home. I like that he approaches things with a “can do” racing mentality rather than one that requires that I back off. I’ll be calling his office first thing tomorrow for an appointment.
Twice now, I’ve tried focusing less on racing and more on the rest of my life. I did that in the fall after Dave moved to Texas, and I did that again once I reached the conclusion that I wouldn’t be able to do Coeur d’Alene. And we did have a great time on this trip, but not racing is not who I am or who I want to be. I enjoy training and racing. I enjoy hard efforts. I enjoy finish lines. I might enjoy them a little too much. I might need them a little too much, but, like I’ve said before, there are worse things I could do than focus on a race or two.
The year is only half over. I can turn around it, and I intend to.